Was It a Nightmare? Nope.

...still just as painful today as it was yesterday. Will this pain ever go away?
I know I shouldn't take all of this personally; it's just as hard on others, as it is myself. It's just that I'm 6,000 miles away from my family and I can't talk to them about it. It's really, really difficult and hurts so badly. I'm still trying to come down from the shock of it all. I want to be understanding of the situation, but my feelings overcome logic. These feelings are pretty indescribable. I can't say that I've ever felt this way before. I just wish things were different.