Monday, November 23, 2009

In a Nutshell

For Nicole

My day in a nutshell:

1.) My co-worker got fired today (the one who I trained with).

2.) I went to the doctor and now have appliances to "unlock" my jaw. I also was scolded at by my doctor for not icing my jaw joint every hour of every day. Oops.

3.) Received a list of my soft food diet:

a.) Balance Shakes

b.) Soft boiled eggs

c.) Mashed potatoes mixed with beef bullion

d.) Soup

e.) Metrecal

f.) Baby food (yes, baby food)

g.) Ensure

Is this list for real? Not happening.....

4.) I saw "This Is It," for the 9th time in the movie theatre.

That sums it up. I'm so excited for this 4 day (busy, busy) weekend! WOOP!

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Sunday Funday

I have my 2nd doctor's appointment tomorrow for my jaw issues. I am currently not allowed to eat anything hard or chewy. Also, no caffeine, especially coffee. No chips, no popcorn, no cereal, no caramel, no gum...the list goes on and on. Really sucks. But my jaw is beginning to loosen up a little. It's been "locked" for over a month. But it'll be ok. Life is looking up compared to what it looked like a couple of weeks ago...
To update you on the car situation, I bought the Mazda 3, but I don't have car insurance. I also need to get the title changed over, get the bumper checked out, and go to the DMV for a new license plate. Ohhh, the process.
On a brighter note, I'm an Auntie now! Little Dilan Rai Cortez was born November 15th, 2009 at 9:23pm; 7lbs 5oz, 21 inches. He is SO freakin' cute! I love the little guy. Ryan and Kavita will be great, loving and proud parents. xxoo

Sunday, November 8, 2009


Clearing out my bedroom now (and the entire top floor of the house, for that matter)...and I mean right now. The reason being, wood floor will be put down tomorrow; which means, I will be out of a room and a bathroom for a few days (once the flooring is put down, it has to set for 3 additional days before furniture, or anything else, can be put down atop of it). So, these next few days will be chaos. I may be staying in a hotel. If you need me, call/text me. :)

And if you haven't seen the MJ movie, This Is It, PLEASE go and see it NOW. I've seen it 8 times so far...and I plan to continue seeing it. I make no apologies for being a huge Michael Jackson fan. It still devastates me that we lost such a talented singer, dancer, performer so prematurely. And I'm not usually one to get upset over celebrity deaths, however, this one really gets to me, still...

In regards to my car situation, I'm in the process of buying one from my brother's friend (it's a Mazda 3, 2006). However, there's a few minor issues that need immediate attention. Once that's been taken care of, then I plan to purchase it. :-)

Ok, off to take care of business!

Saturday, October 17, 2009

I Need to Clean My Room

I just found the car of my dreams! BUT, I think it's too good to be I'm gonna have my brother check it out. If we can talk the price down, just a little bit, I hope it can be mine! I'm sure there's something about it that I'm overseeing. But, we'll see. Ry and I will be out and about today car-shopping (I still don't have a car since I've returned home from Japan. I think my Mom just gave my car away. She said she sold it, but now I am hearing a different story. Whatever). If I am able to buy a car today, I will be the happiest girl in the whole-wide-world!

Everyone is sick at work. Many cases now of the swine flu. Even I have been feeling a little under the weather, but nothing serious. I still refuse to get too sick to stay home from work. :)

I graduated yesterday from my 3 week training course! But I still don't know what I'm doing... bedroom is a complete disaster.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Over the Hump

So tired. Long day. Everyone's getting sick. Co-workers even have the swine flu. I swear, if I get sick, I will be so unhappy. I refuse to get sick. I'm doing everything I possibly can to stay healthy and maintain a clean work space. In fact, I'm quite paranoid about getting sick, that I'm becoming a little obsessive with cleanliness all around me. Can't be too safe!

I'm so excited to go to bed. It's 8:45pm right now, and I feel like I am due past bed time. So, farewell and goodnight.

ps. Barney's opens tomorrow (at Fashion Square)!!! WOOP! :D
I suppose I know where my first pay check is going towards (get paid tomorrow)!!!!
I almost bought a puppy today.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Sad Face

Well, in today's news: I have temporomandibular joint disorder- which is also referred to as TMJ or TMD. I first noticed this maybe two or three years ago, but never was it as serious as it is now. Today my jaw has been "locked" all freakin' day! It's only painful if I try to pop it and it doesn't give. If I'm able to pop it, it's great relief, but usually locks right back up again. It sucks- a lot. I think it's really bad right now due to stress. I know I need to get it checked out, but am too stubborn to take a day off work to do so. I'm never "normal." If it's not a broken bone, it's a pinched nerve. If it's not a pinched nerve, it's a joint problem. If it's not a joint problem, it's nerve damage, etc, etc. I think you get the point. I told my Mom that it's no big deal, but I do think I'm dying. I said, "Mom, it's ok, I accept it." But she doesn't give me my blessing.

Other than my jaw issue, today was a great day! I met with my manager and succeeded in solving a real-life problem! I pat myself on the back.

If you know anything about TMJ, could you please, please let me know anything! I've been researching a bit about it, but have found little helpful information.
Arigato gozaimasu!

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Yay Saturday!

I cannot believe I got paid yesterday. My employers decided to take us on a surprise field trip for most of the day AND leave work an hour early (all paid for). The place we went was the place I was hoping for! We went to Dave and Busters (Desert Ridge) and played unlimited games and ate delicious food! I even got to see my brother (he works for the same company as me. Currently, we're at different locations, but after one more week, we'll be together. yay)! It was so, so much fun! Now, I love my job even more! However, I may not feel the same next week......that's going to be incredibly stressful and overwhelming. Oh, goodness.

I'm still a little behind on my marathon training; however, I'm slowly catching up on the miles I've missed out on. I did the math yesterday and am currently behind by 9.32 miles. However, I'm supposed to do a long run of 9 miles today....I don't see that happening. Bad attitude, Sarah, bad attitude. I'll get a run in today! :)

ps. My camera's broken. I don't know what happened, but the screen is shattered. I blame the bubble gum vodka that entered my life last Saturday night.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Another Week Begins

This weekend went by way too fast. I spent all of today hung-over, due to drinking too much bubble-gum vodka last night. I even over-slept this morning and got into a little bit of trouble. It was my responsibility to get up by 5:30am, go to 6:15 mass, and take Diane to work. But "someone" was messing around with my phone last night and set it to silent; so my alarm clock never went off. Oopsies.

I'm ready for bed. So sleepy. I hope this week goes by faster than last.

Saturday, October 3, 2009

Happy October!

Erica's 25th Birthday
September 26th, 2009

I have been awful about keeping my blog updated! My apologies. Now that it's October, I will try to get myself together!

I started my new job this week. I must say, it was the longest week of my life! Filled with frustration, confusion, exhaustion, and overwhelming amounts of information. I would like to share more about what I do with you, but it goes hand in hand with CIA work, so I can't be too thorough. I do, however, have an additional 2 weeks left of training, so I'm trying to maintain a low stress/anxiety level. Then again, I do tend to feel easily overwhelmed and worried about everything/anything that I am held responsible for. Makes sense, right?

I have also fallen far behind on my marathon training. Very far behind. So, it is my goal to get back on track next week. ~Must stay disciplined.~

Happy Birthday to my sister, Lizzard! Even though she never, ever reads this blog, just thought I'd shout it out anyway.


Sunday, September 20, 2009

Training/ Casey's Bridal Shower

Training. I was only able to run 10 miles last week. On Wednesday, I slept on my neck wrong, went running thinking it was no big deal, then pinched a nerve. This cost me a day, and 6 miles, in my training. So, tomorrow, I gotta make up those miles. My neck is still not 100% better, but I'm hoping by morning, I'll be ok enough to run. We shall see...

Last night. Casey's Bridal Shower. So, so wonderful. I love this girl. And couldn't be any happier for her. Her smile brightens the entire room and she is just beyond beautiful. I can't believe one of my best friends is tying the knot. How fast time flies. Since high school, Casey and Andrew have been together. Even before they were a couple, I swear, they loved each other. Sure, they seemed happy in their previous relationships, but nothing even compared to such happiness as to when they were together. I still remember how elated Casey was to be with Andrew so many years ago. And seeing her last evening was like seeing her back then. I've never seen her so happy. I love you, Casey. The Wedding will be amazing, but the Marriage will be extraordinary.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

I Miss My Little Chisa

I really do miss her.

Friday, September 11, 2009

Labor Day

Isn't she adorable?
Japan: August 2009
I spent my Labor Day evening with my BFF, Chelsea (whom I haven't seen in almost 2 years), her sister, Karly, and friends, Charlotte, Ryann, Jenna and Lisa (in addition to their significant others). In case you may not already know, I've known Char & Ry Girl since the 1st grade, and Jenna & Lisa since High School. I've known Chel and Kar practically since birth. So it was a fun, and much needed, reunion! I love you girls.
I found out on Tuesday (following Labor Day), that I officially got the job, once my background check was complete. Wednesday it successfully cleared! Phew! So, my first day will be September 28th. I am looking forward to starting something new.

I did something the other day that I'm not sure I should have done.....I signed up for the P.F. Changs Rock 'n' Roll Marathon, scheduled for January 17th, 2010. This will be my first marathon. I've run two half-marathons in previous years, but never a full. I figure that since 2 halves equal a whole, I've practically run a full marathon already. However, I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't worried about this excursion. Quite the contrary.
My official marathon training begins next week. If you don't hear from me soon, it may be because I am suffering a slow and agonizing death.

Saturday, September 5, 2009

Burned Retinas

Ok. I had my annual eye appointment today. I am sad to report that I have damaged my retinas. My doctor described it as stretched out bubble gum. I blame the solar eclipse.....damn solar eclipse..... Please never, ever stare at one. It really does damage your little retinas. Poor retinas.

I don't know the official news yet, but I do believe I got the job I was fighting for (I heard the good news through the grapevine). I received a phone call on Friday, but of course, missed it. So I have to call Human Resources back on Tuesday. If this is true, I will start working the last week in September. Good for me! Now I can support my unhealthy shopping/spending addiction......

It's Saturday night- ASU Football!!! GO DEVILS!!!

Monday, August 31, 2009

Cheeseburger, No Burger

Amsterdam 2007
Why can I order a cheeseburger, no burger, in Japan without any problems, but can't do so here? The other night, I went to McDonald's to make such an order, yet they succeeded in messing it up. I got home, opened up my cheese"burger"- with a meat patty! I was so disappointed. I had to throw it out. I guess I'm misunderstood in America.

Hayley Jean and I spent the evening together. I love that girl. We've known each other since high school and are the best of friends. Apparently, she doesn't support me in all of my choices. But I respect that. She loves me unconditionally.


Friday, August 28, 2009

Do you have Grey Goose? A question I no longer need to ask.


I just watched the Season 5 finale of Grey's Anatomy and cried like a baby. I think Cali thinks there is something seriously wrong with me. I've worried her... Oh goodness... I need to get myself together...

I had a phone interview the other day, which went swimmingly well. Now I have an on-sight interview scheduled for next week. I know this will be a competitive position to fight for, so we'll see how I do. I hate interviews.

I'm excited for this weekend! Although, technically, my weekend started last night....

Monday, August 24, 2009

What a Bust!

Shibuya Crossing
World's Largest Intersection
Tokyo, Japan

Don't see District 9. I hated it. And the three people sitting next to me felt the same; they walked out about half-way through it. The funniest part was, after the movie, my sister was walking out of the theatre, with people all around, and shouted, "That movie was SO STUPID!" I thought it was hilarious! I agreed with her, but I don't think other people did. In fact, before seeing this movie, I heard good reviews about it. And maybe you've seen it and liked it. But it just wasn't my cup of tea.

My sister, Lizzy, left late last night and it isn't the same without her here. I miss her already. She usually woke me up every morning- in very annoying ways-but I miss that. I just miss hanging out with her.

Today is Monday and everyone is back at school/work. I'll be watching Grey's Anatomy and eating taco rice (I can make it now)! Not the same as King Taco, but still delicious! Ahhh, I miss Nicole.

I'm working on getting a job right now, but the director and I are currently playing phone tag. We'll see if that progresses.....

Sunday, August 23, 2009

New Cell Phone

Finally! This girl has a new cell phone and a new number! I feel connected to the world again. :)

My sister leaves tonight for North Carolina. I don't know what it'll be like without her, considering she's been here since I have. I don't want her to leave. :(

Today, the family is having lunch together (everyone except my Mom- she's working her usual Sunday hospital shift). Four Peaks! Then we're gonna see a movie! I haven't been to a movie theatre in over a year! This is exciting for me......

Saturday, August 15, 2009

I can't do that anymore, I no longer live in Japan!


So tonight, I drove down the wrong side of the road. It was a scary thing. I didn't even realize it til a car was coming straight at me! Then I thought, "Oooohhhh, ssshhhhhiitttt!!!" And I couldn't just drive to the other side of the road, due to a large median. So, I had to back the fuck up, from where I originally came from, and get myself together! I really hope I never do that again. I need to be a little bit smarter.

I'm still on Japan time. This past week, I've been going to bed around 8am and waking up around 4 or 5pm. It's really awful. No matter how hard I try, I can't re-adjust. Maybe I should change my watch back to Arizona time. I think that would be a good step.

Other than my reverse culture-shock, everything is going great! I have a comfortable bed to sleep in, a clothes dryer and a bath tub. However, a lot has changed since I've been gone. So I am trying to deal with that.

I do miss Nicole and some of my students- like Chisa.
Change is a difficult thing for me.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

If It Kills Me

I love this dance. I love that Travis Wall choreographed it and that my favorite dancer, Jeanine Mason, is part of it.

Monday, August 10, 2009

I'm HOME!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll post more pics and updates later. As of now, my neck is still out from Saturday night. I pinched a nerve in my neck/back. I've been in bed these past two days. But it was so, so wonderful seeing my beautiful friends again! I have missed YOU ALL!

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Lost in Tokyo

Tonight, I decided to go out by myself and explore the city a bit. Bad idea. Bad, bad idea. And of course, I felt confident enough to go out without bringing any maps/directions with me. Long story short, I had no clue how to return to the hostel and even forgot the name of the station I needed to go to. If there weren't 183 trains/subways, and if I weren't surrounded by Japanese speakers, the situation would have been easier. However, I was so clueless and really thought I would never make it back. Fortunately, this one Japanese man helped me out a whole, whole lot. He spoke English and could probably read how stressed and confused I was all over my face. I don't know what I would have done without that man.
I just found out that I accidentally went to Shinagawa, when I meant to go to Shibuya. Then I mistook Asakusa (the station I needed to return to), for a name I made up called, Asakuchi. That was not a fun experience. However, my hostel friends thought it was funny. Not funny, friends. Not funny.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Drunk in Tokyo

I am drunk in Tokyo. I am with a twin of an old friend. I miss Nicole. She is in Okinawa. Life is weird. Is this all really happening? I really, really miss her. A lot.
ps. I think I accidentally ate chicken today. Let's not talk about it. I also got lost for about an hour for a place that was only one minute away from where I was originally located. Let's not talk about that either.

Friday, July 31, 2009


I need to pack, but there are guys passed out on my floor, keeping me from doing so...

Sunday, July 26, 2009

The Very Best Weekend

Azusa and I

This past Saturday was my last Saturday of work (my final day of work will be this Friday, July 31st). It was such a relief working, knowing that I no longer had to wake up early and teach for 10 hours again. The new teacher, Andy, came in on Friday night; so we started working together this weekend (he'll be taking over my schedule after I leave. So it's my responsibility to train him and teach him the ropes). All was great until I had to say goodbye to my favorite class (high school class) later in the afternoon. That was a difficult goodbye. Probably my hardest. Then again, Chisa (who I'll see later this week) will be another emotional goodbye. She is, without a doubt, my favorite little girl in the whole, wide world. I get teary-eyed just thinking about saying goodbye to her. I don't want to say goodbye to Chisa. Not to Chisa. I don't even know how or why I got so attached to her. It's just one of those things you can't explain. It is what it is.

After I taught my high school girls' class (plus Kozo), I taught my final adult class, which is another one of my favorite classes. Oh, how I will miss them. They are so thoughtful, kind and generous. We all went out to dinner (including Nicole, Andy and Keisuke [who is our part-time teacher]) and said our final goodbyes. A few even came out afterwards to Nicole's apartment to pre-party before going to Saicolo's. We had quite the group headed out for the night, including a couple new faces, and even more familiar faces at the club. I had such a great time. It was, without a doubt, my favorite night ever in Japan. A few highlights included one of my adult students, Tsucasa, trying to get me to stay in Japan by finding me a Japanese boyfriend; singing, dancing and fighting with Nicole (for many hours) at American Idol; witnessing Ryan fall on his ass during his performance; then seeing Christian face plant during his performance (at one point he even fell and broke the flower vase on the table. He got in trouble. I'm surprised he didn't get kicked out. Then again, I'm surprised we all didn't get kicked out). I wish I had a video-camera to capture all of that craziness. I think a lot of fighting occurred throughout the night (ie. Nicole and Brian, Nicole and Ben, and Nicole and I...I see a trend...), but by 7am, everyone was too tired, drunk/hung-over to care. That was a good night/morning.

When I returned home, my alarm clock was going off. I don't usually get up at 7am, but apparently that's what time I like to go to bed. 5 hours later, the bruises showed up on my leg from the tambourine...they take a week to heal, then it happens all over again...Ooh, they are bad today...there are a bunch of black and blue bruises on my thigh...I blame Nicole...

I am going to miss the crazy people I've met here. I've met some pretty incredible people who I don't plan on ever saying "goodbye" to. I hate goodbyes. I am terrible at them. So instead of goodbye, I have to say, "See you later," cause will. I will see everyone again. This won't be/can't be the last time.

So, that said, I will see you all again later. I love you. And thank you for everything.

Keisuke and Christian

Nicole, Grey and Ben

Bob. I have a lot of respect for this guy. Then again, I have a lot of respect for all you Marines.

My student, Azusa

Christian, Ben and Nicole. Love Triangle.

Christian, right after he face planted and continued singing on the bar floor.

Bob and Bill

Kaori and Yumi

Brian, Kaori, Yumi, Stanley and Tsucasa

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Solar Eclipse of the Heart

Last night, Nicole made somen for dinner (thank you, Nicole) and we stayed up past 2am watching Grey's Season 2. Amazing. Now I am ready for Season 3!

After teaching my babies this morning, there was a Solar Eclipse. According to Wikipedia, this was the longest total solar eclipse of the 21st century, lasting 6 minutes, 39 seconds. The next one will occur on August 2, 2027. I didn't find out til afterwards that I wasn't supposed to look directly at the sun. But I did. Ok, seriously, when there is a solar eclipse in the sky, how can you not look directly at the sun??? Sure, it's possible, but unlikely. Anyway, I definitely damaged my eyes. I just pray that I don't wake up blind tomorrow morning. Right now, that is my biggest fear.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Fun Weekend

This weekend was super fun!
Saturday night: Saicolo's
Sunday: Festival
Sunday night: Kin Town & Taco Rice
Monday: Relaxation & Taco Rice
ps. I finally made a facebook album from Japan. These photos, and many others, can be found there. :-)

Thursday, July 16, 2009


Yesterday was long and tiresome. I taught for 3 hours on Base (mostly about hot dogs) and thoroughly enjoyed the guys' stories. One of the marines continues to tell me (every day) about his times at the snack bar and the girls he meets. He's very open about his personal life. I can't help but laugh. Then there's the Captain. He likes to tell me time and time again that American food is poison. I try to argue this from some angles, but for the most part, he is right. Another marine tells me how much he loves meat (he only says this so much because he knows how much I hate it). These men love to pick my brain and argue with me (in a fun-natured way). I love it.

I just spent a couple hours there this morning. I think one asked me out on a date this weekend?
Yesterday afternoon, I taught my devil children. I even told one of my students that her eyes are empty and she has no soul. lol. Trust me. She is an awful little girl with a bad, bad mouth. I only say such awful things to her because she doesn't ever understand me anyway. So, with her, I tell her how I really feel...

Last night was so GREAT! Nicole, Stephen and I went out to Kokusai Street and ate taco rice! Then, Stephen ditched us (he does that more often than not) to go to American Idol. So then Nicole and I went to Banter House for open mic night. Let me just say- it was AMAZING! Some really great singers and this one fantastic acapella group. I fell in love with this one Japanese guy named, Yusuke. Not only was he very cute and talented (great singer), but he could speak English! Nicole and I invited him out this weekend to Saicolo's. We'll see if he shows up...oops...I think I invited a few marines this morning as well. It'll be a good time! This weekend may be one of my favorites! I cannot wait!
Nicole's Love

My Love, Yusuke

Our friend, Kakoon

Acapella Group: LOVE

Tuesday, July 14, 2009


....I just spilled coffee all over my lap-top and bed. Oopsie. I don't even know how that happened. It just happened. No more coffee around the computer or in bed. I'm banned.

Yesterday morning I spent a couple of hours on Base teaching the Japanese Military men. They're a great group (of 13). I'm excited to work with them for the next couple of weeks. It mixes up my usual, routine schedule.

This afternoon I'll head back to the Base, then back to the school to teach my kids until 9pm. These days are full of teaching, teaching, teaching. At least my weekends are full of drinking, drinking, drinking...

My Top 5 Loves
1. Grey Goose
2. Grey's Anatomy
3. Taco Rice
4. Starbucks
5. Chisa

Monday, July 13, 2009

I Love Taco Rice

Going out Friday night til 3am is never a good idea when you have to work 10 hours the following day. Gross. Somehow, we pushed through it. Then we all went out again Saturday night- dancing and drinking, then went to Kin Town Sunday and spent the day hung-over. The best part was eating taco rice from King Taco and watching Grey's Anatomy. Two of the best combinations.

Today, I spent 4 hours getting my hair done. This is the happiest I've been with my hair in the last year! I almost started crying when my hair dresser told me she would never forget me.

Tomorrow morning I have to go to the Japanese Military Base and teach for a couple of hours. Yuck. In two weeks time, I'm putting in an extra 18 teaching hours. I'd rather spend that time sleeping or watching Grey's. Too bad I don't have that choice. No, I'm not bitter ;-)

Chris- Congratulations on Matthew James, aka MJ!
Hayley- I owe you an over-due e-mail...
Tony- You're beginning to sound like me with your drunken nights...
Beach- Update your blog please...
Nicole- Let me know when you're home.


Thursday, July 9, 2009

Thirsty Thursday

Last night was so funny. After work, Stephen, Nicole and I went to a bar right off of Kokusai Street called, Banter House. It was open mic night, and this one Japanese guy was nonsense. He was shouting Japanese, almost falling over numerous times, and pounding the mic to his chest. No one could help but laugh. I was quite amused myself. I think Nicole fell in love with him...
After that incredible performance, we went to Rehab for one more drink. Well, one more drink for Nicole and I. Stephen decided to go out afterwards and stay out all night. He tends to do that.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Ready for the Weekend

If I didn't quit my job and if Nicole weren't just hired- we'd both get fired!!! The two of us teaching side by side = trouble. Last night was memorable singing, "M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E," as loud as we could to and with our classes. I'm not sure if the students enjoyed it or just thought the two of us were crazy.
As teachers, however, we have to amuse ourselves in someway, otherwise we would really go crazy. It can be so frustrating teaching English to Japanese students. I'll never know exactly how much it is they understand. More often than not, they just look at us with blank stares and all we want is some kind of reaction from them. But we have to work really hard to get anything. It's like pulling teeth. That's why Nikki and I have turned to song and dance. :-)

Monday, July 6, 2009

Weekend Pictures


Great Weekend- why did it have to end so soon???
Back to work tomorrow. So much to little time.....

Nicole smells like dirty underwear.

Friday, July 3, 2009

6 More Hours

It's never the brightest idea to go out the night before working a 10 hour day. I am so tired and irritable. My poor kids- I'm not the nicest teacher today (I'm on break right now).

Looking forward to tonight- after 7pm the weekend has begun! We're all going out- Naha City! Party, party!

Happy Birthday, Chelsea Elizabeth. I love you. Quarter of a Century. Congratulations, Beautiful Girl. You are so amazing.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Let's Meet in Tokyo

I taught 3 extra classes this morning for one of the teachers who took vacation this week. I am so nice sometimes. ~ The kids were so adorable! So well behaved, smart, and cute, cute, cute!!! I'll have to tell Brian Sensei that he's a sensational teacher.

Nicole stole my futon last night. Now my apartment is naked.

Can I really move myself out of here in less than a month? I have my doubts. Also, I am a little nervous about travelling to Tokyo by myself; which doesn't make any sense because I have travelled to numerous places all alone. So, why is Tokyo making me nervous? I think it's because I don't have anything planned or a place to stay. Way to go, Sarah.

Anyone wanna meet me in Tokyo???

Working Over-Time

In my last class tonight, one of my students played Thriller on his cell phone. So instead of teaching, I was dancing to Thriller. Then my boss walked in.....end of story.

My last two weeks here, I will be working over-time to help pay for my outrageous bills next month (I have a $200 cell phone bill and a $200 Internet bill for ending the contracts early. Also, I have to pay double my rent/utilities to cover the previous month, as well as the month I'm leaving). I just hope I can survive.....


Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Bed Time

I really enjoyed one of my students singing High School Musical songs to me today. We bonded.
~I am so tired from all of this stress. Japan is exhausting. And the language barrier has been beyond challenging; lots of tears and stress over that alone. I just can't wait to be home. That is all I want.

Monday, June 29, 2009

37 Days= Arizona!

I am getting excited! But I am also becomming a little sad. I am truly going to miss so many people here. I've met friends for life in Japan. Although I went through so, so many awful days here (like today), the great days made up for them. Maybe when I return to America, I won't drink so much. I'm so eager for the near future. It's so close- I can almost taste it!

I'm returning on August 6th- My parent's Wedding Anniversary! Wow. I cannot wait to see so many special people. I HAVE MISSED YOU!!!

Please come to my Welcome Home Party on August 8th, hosted by Hayley Jean. If you are interested, please contact her or myself for further details.

ps. I cried over 3 times today. First time, after I cancelled my gym membership. 2nd time, after I lost my Internet. And 3rd time, after I cancelled my cell phone. That one blind-sighted me. I didn't know I had to cancel that today. But I did. And it's gone. July may not be much fun.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Kin Town

I have returned to Naha City! I spent the weekend in Kin Town with my new friend and co-worker, Nikki, and her boyfriend, Ben. We spent Saturday night out at a few bars, where Nikki danced with an old, Japanese man to Michael Jackson's, Thriller. He's gonna die a happy man- guaranteed. We also had dinner at the most amazing restaurant I have ever experienced in my entire life. It was enormous, filled with hundreds of wood carvings, bonsai trees, cave-like rooms, various inside and outside rooms and a number of floors. It was insane; quite remarkable.
Nikki dancing to Thriller

We then spent Sunday at the beach with a few of Ben's friends and kiddies. The ocean was perfect for swimming and the weather was ideal. I burned a little, but I'm not surprised. I always manage to miss areas when it comes to applying my sunblock. Never fails.

Sunday night I was introduced to Grey's Anatomy. I have never seen this show in my life until last night and I'm already beginning to get hooked. We started with Season 1, Episode 1. I can't remember how many we watched, but I wanna watch more!

So now it's Monday at 11:45am. Nikki and I just returned from a 2 and 1/2 hour bus ride from Kin Town. The bus ride was a little longer than we had anticipated. But we made it. Now, she's upstairs, getting herself all settled in in her new apartment (she just moved out of her hotel, where she was staying for a week). She'll be here soon- then we're going shopping. And I need Starbucks. Badly.

ps. I am losing my Internet at midnight tonight :(
Tony, can you still record, So You Think You Can Dance, for me? That would be SO amazing!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Missing Michael Jackson

I love Thirsty Thursdays, but then it's always so difficult waking up on Freaky Friday.

I just had a dream last night/this morning that I returned to the States, forgetting practically everything here! I was in such a hurry to go home, I simply forgot to pack my favorite things like my Christmas bedsheets, my purses/bags, and all of my jewelry. I hadn't even received my paycheck! My most recent dreams have been so real and vivid. When I wake up, I slowly come back to reality.

I am in shock that Michael Jackson just died hours ago. Really? Wow, that's a tragedy.
I bet America is absolutely devastated. I know I am. :(

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

5 Points

Just polished off the rest of my wine- Jacob's Creek. Delicious. Sooooo- this post will be filled with random things about my day.

Number one: My Moe kissed me on the lips today after class. Wish I had a picture of that. She is SO, SO ADORABLE!
Number two: Chisa agreed to go back to the States with me! She said YES!
Number three: The new teacher, Nikki, and I have so much in common, it's quite scary. We are currently reading the same book, we love Chelsea Handler, and our personalities match like you wouldn't believe.
Number four: I either have 14 new bug bites on my right thigh, or I am breaking out into some sort of awful rash. But from what??? I don't eat any weird Japanese food- like octopus or pig face- so what is going on??? Also, I have another eye infection, as of this morning...
Number five: I stayed up til 4am last night and should be asleep right now. But I have chosen to drink instead.

Tomorrow is Thirsty Thursday! It'll be an exciting say the least...

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

6 Weeks = America

I went out last night with the guys. It was a good night filled with vodka and memories...

I love the new girl!!! She just came over to my apartment, along with Joshua and Stephen, and we talked forever. But, really, I am so happy she is here. I have a new American girlfriend who I can share my secrets with...finally. ;-)

Believe it or not, I am gonna miss this place- more than I even realize. So, I will enjoy the rest of my time here thoroughly. No doubt. Even though I am losing Internet soon, I will do my best to blog every now and then. If there's a will, there's a way. Right?

Much Love. Sarah xoxo

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Return Home: August 6th!!!

I just bought my plane ticket from Tokyo to the U.S.! I will be leaving and returning on August 6th (I love that I gain the 16 hours back that I lost when I first arrived here). It'll be the longest and happiest day of my life! :-)

I am also happy to report that I am not intoxicated this evening. When I woke up this morning with a tattoo on my arm that read "xxx rated" and a heart around it, I thought, "Ok, time to lay off the hard alcohol for a while." Don't worry, not a real tat. Just something the bartender thought was funny and decided to use my skin as his canvas.

So tired today. Besides purchasing my plane ticket and laundry, I got absolutely nothing done today. And there's a lot that needs to be done. I choose procrastination.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Congratulations Ry and Kavitz!

Just returned from going out.
Brother, Ryan, and Kavita are getting married at this very moment. SUCKS that I am in Japan right now. Then again, I am drunk, so I have become numb to any pain at this point.
Me=Drunk. What's new???
Peace Out.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Tonight: Wine

I am obsessed with "So You Think You Can Dance." What will I do without it for 6 weeks???

I am so happy tomorrow is Saturday and the weekend will arrive at 7pm tomorrow evening. We have a new teacher starting tomorrow morning. I wonder what she'll be like. I know absolutely nothing about her.

Today was a good day, but also tiring. I taught my little munchkins and my junior high school students. If I thought today was long- tomorrow is double the work load. I'll need extra-strong coffee in the morning...perhaps I'll wake up early and make a run to Starbucks. Or maybe not.

There's a large gecko living in my apartment. When I first saw it today, it scared the shit out of me cause I thought it was a cockroach. But it was a gecko. I like geckos. I hope it eats all the mosquitoes and nasty-ass cockroaches residing in my apartment. My place is infested.

ps. Today is my 10 month anniversary since arriving in Japan. I can't believe I've been here now for 10 months. Weird.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Correction: June 30th

Sorry. I just found out today, I am losing my Internet June 30th, not the 25th.
I've been drinking Vodka this evening. Now I am eating dinner. Thursdays are awful here. And I cannot wait until Rainy Season is over. I also cannot wait to return to America to see my favorite faces.
I love you, friends.
Sarah Lee***

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Losing Internet June 25th

It's official. I am losing my Internet and connection to the World in 8 days. Blows Big Time. So this means no more blogging, no more "So You Think You Can Dance," and no more conversing with my American friends/family for over a month. Ridiculous. Japan is just ridiculous.
July is going to SUCK. I wonder if there's free Interent at Starbucks...hmmm....doubt it. Nothing is free in this country.

Today I loved my precious 3-5 year olds (especially Chisa). However, some annoyed me. The others are just so darn cute, it's almost unbearable. I wish some were my own. And that's the truth. I'm thinking about kidnapping Chisa. I heard that the Japanese government doesn't do anything about kidnapped children. They just turn their heads. So- here's my chance! I may bring home an adorable 5-year-old Japanese girl. And when you see her, you'll understand why I had to do it. ;-)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Stressed Out

I am stressing out about getting a flight back to the States, not having Internet or a phone next month, and trying to get everything done before the time I leave Okinawa. I just don't know. I have a ticket to Tokyo, but no ticket to the States. Great, Sarah. Just great. I'm leaving this Island in 7 weeks (exactly)- and couldn't be happier- but how am I gonna make this work?

It's been raining like crazy this past week. I shouldn't have ever written in one of my previous posts that rainy season seemed nonexistent. Now it's here and it blows. Today was the "grayest" day I have ever experienced in my life. Talk about depressing. However, despite the weather, it was a good day, with good classes and fabulous students.

Would you believe that I went to bed last night at 7:30pm? It was incredible. Tonight will be a late night. Too much spinning in my head this evening- and not because of the Grey Goose...or is it???
Ok, Goodnight. I love you, America.

P.S. ~ Can you name the movie this quote is from (just watched this for the 1st time today):
"Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off."
...Also a Panic! At The Disco song, but they stole the line from a 2004 movie...

Sunday, June 14, 2009

Bed Bugs

Today I washed all of my bedsheets, took my comforter to the dry-cleaners, and inspected and turned over my mattress. Cathy has instilled a fear of bed bugs living in my bed. She has been going through a very difficult time right now with her own bed bugs, so my heart goes out to her. However, I wouldn't doubt if I had them, too. I am growing tired of waking up with new bug bites every morning. So hopefully, I no longer have to suffer itchy, scratchy bites on my fingers, arms, toes and legs. Enough is enough.

I heart SYTYCD. Besides Grey Goose, it's my #1 Love in Japan. I don't think I'll have Internet next month, so I am sure gonna miss this show (along with everything else online). July may be the worst and slowest month ever.

Hot. I enjoyed this top 20 piece. Choreographed by Shane Sparks.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

I Love to Sleep; Who Knew?

Wow. Working yesterday and today was beyond exhausting. It's 63% my fault for staying up until 7am Friday morning (after going out drinking Thursday night), then getting a solid 4 hours of sleep before going into work. So, for two days, I have yet to catch up on those 4 hours I missed out on and desperately need. I've been trying not to fall asleep during my classes. Seriously, I had a difficult time keeping my eyes open these past 2 days. I took partial naps during my breaks, but didn't want to fall completely asleep for fear of not waking up in time for my next class. Let's just say I'm relieved to catch up on sleep this weekend. I'm not even going out tonight (and it's Saturday night) because I feel so sleep-deprived. Tonight's going to be an early night for me and I love this idea.
Since when do I need at least 8 hours of sleep? In high school and college I hardly ever slept and was completely functional. I used to think I suffered from insomnia. Well, not anymore.
If it's not one problem, it's another...

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Oh No

I drank too much and cannot write an appropriate post right now. Sorry. I blame two people- Hernando and Joshua. Bad influences. Sucks that I have to work tomorrow. I'd rather spend the day hung-over and in bed. Thanks to H and J, you'll hear from me tomorrow....

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

yAY pAY dAY!

I heart pay day. The only thing that devastated me today was that I may not have internet next month. I don't know if I could go an entire month without it (then again, when I first arrived in Japan, I went 5 months without internet. I have no freakin' clue how I did that). But now that I have it, I never want to let it go....seriously, what am I going to do? However, I'm going to try and negotiate to do whatever I can to have internet for the month of July. Fingers crossed.

SO hot today! Well, actually, at this very moment, it's only 79 degrees; however, the humidity is at 92%. Humidity s-u-c-k-s!

Today was long with the kiddies. Some of them are hopeless. I've tried so hard for so long. If they don't get it by now, there's nothing more I can do. I'm throwing in the towel.

It's time for Tsutaya (video store) and dinner.
Love You. xxx
omg- I still love Chisa forever. I'm gonna miss her the most!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

52 Days! Wooo!

Today was a happy day. I compromised with my boss and have decided that August 1st will be my last day! I can handle that! Also, I won't have a roommate in a couple of weeks (as originally planned) because she doesn't want to live with anyone. Hmmm-she sounds friendly. But actually, I'm relieved because I don't have to stress about cleaning like a mad woman before she arrives. So I have more time to relax...and ride the wave :-)

I can't sleep on the left side of my body due to the coral scratches and bruising. It feels like something ran over me. It's terribly sore. I wish I didn't love sleeping on my left side. Then there would be no problem. But this is a problem...

Ok, now I need to gather my laundry from outside and get ice and dinner next door (at San-A). I am so tired, I don't feel like cooking. But I'm going to anyway.

The countdown has officially begun! See you all soon in the United States of America! This girl cannot wait!

Monday, June 8, 2009


My coral accident from yesterday has now begun the bruising process. My whole body hurts today. But I talked to my Mama this morning, so that made all the pain go away ;)
Have you ever missed someone so much you just cry? It's actually becoming more difficult to talk to my family over the phone because I spend a lot of the time crying. I don't mean crying in the dramatic sense, but in a more subtle way. In fact, I'm not sure whether or not they can even pick up on it. But tears definitely run down my face; and not because I'm sad or depressed, but simply because I miss them so, so much.
On a brighter note, watch So You Think You Can Dance! I finally found a website so that I can watch it! I'm extremely disappointed with some of the dancers they let go of; however, I'm really excited for this season! Vote for Ade!

This was performed at a JUMP Competition some time ago. Performed by Kaitlyn Conley (love this girl) and Ade Obayomi (now on Season 5 of SYTYCD). Choreographed by Natasha Louis.

Sunday, June 7, 2009


I went snorkeling today! I kind of re-injured my previously broken foot when I was going down some rocks. come the doctor said it would fully heal in one month (from my Christmas accident)? That should have been about 5 months ago. Goes to show how much he knows. I think my foot's messed up for life. Sucks.
So, I was most afraid of sea snakes and dangerous sea creatures today in the ocean. However, I was hurt by none of these, but instead, by the coral. I got scraped up on my hand, arm and outer thigh pretty badly. In fact, it still burns. It bled a little- but it hurts more than what shows. I hope coral pieces didn't crawl into my skin, causing serious infection later. Why am I so prone to injuries?
After our sea adventure- guess what I finally got? YES! GREY GOOSE! I am so happy. Grey Goose just makes everything better. ;-)
I went to Kokusai Street earlier today to get some shopping done for others (not myself), but I did not get that accomplished. Instead, I bought myself jewelry. Selfish, huh? My Aunt Marilyn used to call me her, "jewelry girl," when I was about 9 years old (I still remember that). Anyhow, I think I live up to that name. I heart jewelry- and whenever I buy any, I think of my Aunt.
Despite my injuries, today was a good day in Japan.

Saturday, June 6, 2009

The Weekend is Here!

I really hate teaching 8 classes in a single day. Too much for me. But I do enjoy my high school girls' advanced class. We just talked about dating today. I found out that one of my students is sort of "dating" someone in Egypt (he's half Egyptian/ half Japanese). How crazy is that?!
I am so proud of three of my girls- they are all going to America in August to study abroad! They're all going to different states- on their own! I'd like to think I had something to with their brave/gung-ho decisions, but probably not. But, really, I'd still like to think so... :-)
I'm so happy the weekend is here! Beach time! Except this weekend, I will try my hardest not to burn. But I can't make any promises. I've never experienced such strong sunlight in my life. ~ And I'm not sure whatever happened to the rainy season? It's hardly rained at all! Not that I am complaining- please- I love the sun. And I appreciate that this rainy season is practically non-existent! that I just said that, it'll start raining nonstop...

Friday, June 5, 2009

I Don't Know What To Do- Help!

Hmmm...Boss Man wants me to stay in Japan until August 8th. He found a replacement for me who could be here the first week of August (then I'd spend the week training the newbie). I don't know whether or not I should agree to do this or not? What do you think? Of course I want to leave more than anything (sooner than later); however, I do want to leave on a good note in a positive, professional way. Please let me know any of your thoughts on the matter.
After my last class tonight, one of my students came up to me and said, "Miss Sarah, you seem sad. Are you ok?" I had no idea I seemed sad during class. I do my best to keep my personal life personal. However, I suppose if it's all I can think about (wanting to go home), I'm fairly easy to read. I'm not a good actress.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Stuck in Japan Forever

So, I may not be leaving Japan Land as early as I had hoped...I may be stuck here forever. It all depends on whether or not "boss man" can find the "right" replacement. I just found this all out tonight. What unfortunate news. Grrrr! I was gonna look for plane tickets this week, but now I have to wait. Such a bummer to have something to look forward to, then all of a sudden, have that taken away from you. This was the one good thing I had going for me; now I have nothing. Well, except vodka.
I just want to go home. Sooner than later. Will someone come and get me?

Tuesday, June 2, 2009


Whoever said that, "cockroaches are more scared of you than you are of them," is a liar. So not true. Reason #1) They don't scream as loud as I do (even during an English lesson) and #2) They chase after me as I'm trying to run away from them.
I currently have in my possession a bottle of roach killer and 3 bottles of hairspray- watch out you gross cockroaches. Steer clear. You're on my bad side.
I really love that one of my high school students is in love with her 30-40 year old math/archery teacher. Good for her! Didn't we all have a crush on at least one of our school teachers? If you just answered no, you are a liar.
Goodnight from Japan Land. Sweet Dreams.

Monday, June 1, 2009

I am a Lobster

...went to the beach today and b-u-r-n-e-d. Little did I know that my sunblock needed to be reapplied every 80 minutes. Oopsies. I thought it was good for 12 hours. My bad. And this may hurt worse tomorrow than it does now (my legs burnt the most. I didn't even know my legs could burn)!
Damn Okinawan sun- so strong over here. Sometimes I simply forget that.

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Chelsea Belleface

I would just like to dedicate this post to my best friend, Chelsea Elizabeth, whom I've known, loved, and appreciated since pre-school. I love this girl so much. She's always been there for me. Even though we've spent years, and been worlds, apart- she has never, ever escaped from my dearest thoughts and prayers. My favorite memories include her. Sometimes while I'm teaching my little ones, it takes me back to the time I was that age and remember pieces of my younger childhood with my dearest friend, Chelly.
I remember the first day I met her and we fought over who's house we wanted to play at; I remember dancing together to the song, "I'm Gonna Be (500 Miles)," by the Proclaimers; I remember her Dad singing to us on that way to the school bus, "We're going to the school...we're gonna have some fun....;" I remember she was the first person I went driving with immediately after I got my drivers' license (we went to Jack-in-the-Crack); we got our tongues pierced together on my 19th Birthday; and of course- I could never forget when we watched, "Thriller," by Michael Jackson over and over again (when we were about 5 years old)- and hide behind the couch because we were so scared, yet we loved it! Anyway, the memories are endless. I just want you to know, Chel, that you are so dearly loved, missed, cherished and admired. Forever my Sister. Thank you for your 22 years of friendship. I am so lucky and fortunate to have you as my best friend. Bless your heart.

Happy Sunday

I just found out last night that my Japanese Sister is engaged! I am so, so happy for her! Too bad that'll be another Wedding I won't be able to attend...
Last night was Commune's 3rd Anniversary party- so all drinks were 300 yen ($3). I saved a lot of yen last night. :-)
Work was great yesterday- I just can't wait to have Saturdays off again. I wonder what that's like?
I can't believe today is the last day of May. Time has never flown by so fast in all of my life; but I'm not complaining. ;-)
Happy Sunday!

Friday, May 29, 2009


I learned how to make a turtle out of Origami today (probably my first and last time). Little Yu-ho wore the turtle she made in her hair- sooooooooo adorable!
I taught a new class this evening- phew, that was challenging! I wasn't expecting that to be as difficult as it was. You know you're in trouble (as a teacher), when students can't even answer the question, "How are you?" My 3 year old students can answer that question- and more. So I am a little confused as to why 9th graders don't have a clue? Were they sleeping during their English lessons at school?......Apparently so........

I'm looking forward to the weekend- you can find me at the beach.....

Thursday, May 28, 2009

I Hate Thursdays, But....

....I love drinking afterwards!!!
Only have to get through two more working days- then I have a very busy weekend ahead of me. So many things on my "to do" list. I bet I can get it all done, though. It's just a matter of motivation- that is the key to success. ;-)
Things have finally started looking up. I am very happy, and very excited, for the near future. I am looking forward to the next chapter in my life. Ready to leave Okinawa- onto bigger and better things! :-)
Much Love,
Sarah lee Marie

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

I Love Chisa


Ok, so there are some students I absolutely adore and will miss forever. To name a few: Chisa, Moe and Aine.
One short conversation with Chisa today went something like this:

Miss Sarah: "Chisa! My Mommy says, 'Hello,' to you."
Chisa: "Hello, Miss Sarah!"
Miss Sarah: "No, no, Chisa- My Mommy says, 'Hello,' to you."
Chisa: "Hello, Miss Sarah!"
Then I gave up....
She is just so freakin' cute. I do love her. And I'll never forget that little girl.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

It's Raining

It was a long day today with my private lesson, babysitting duty and regular classes. I hardly had enough time to prep my lessons for the day. In fact, I'm quite worried about getting all of my lessons prepped for the week. But let me tell you this....during babysitting time, Ryosuke just cried for the last 15 minutes and there was nothing I could do to help him. I tried. But he just wanted his Mama. Why am I babysitting here when I should be teaching English lessons? I didn't sign up to babysit. Not here. Not in Japan. Thank you much.
I'm happy to say that I will be returning home before my contract is up! This is very exciting news! I don't know any exact dates yet, but my last scheduled work day is July 25th (if all goes according to plan). So, we shall see....
The brother is officially married (in court on Friday). Just wish he would talk to me about this. That's my only wish...

Monday, May 25, 2009

Vitamin D

Today in a nutshell: Gym, Beach, Outlet Mall, Smuggler's.
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I finally got my share of Vitamin D. Maybe a little too much- slightly burnt in some spots. Regardless, it was a beautiful day. Now I am exhausted from the sun (the sun makes me so tired). So, I may get to bed at a decent hour. Maybe. Life is still bothersome; trying to deal.
Joshua's Sand Art: Spongebob

Saturday, May 23, 2009

The Days Don't Get Better

So I just found out yesterday that I'm gonna have a roommate next month for about a week (she's replacing another teacher in June). I'm so jealous that she's not replacing me. Josh, I envy you! ~ This means, I have some major cleaning to get done. Hope she doesn't mind cockroaches. Cause there's nothing I can do about those sick creatures. She's coming June 19th, which I find extremely ironic; I wish I could leave June 19th (Ryan's getting married June 20th, in case you didn't already know). Only in a perfect world would I be there and this all wouldn't be happening the way that it is.

I gave my 2 months notice, via e-mail, just a couple of hours ago. So I'll let you know how that all turns out. . .

I have 7 mosquito bites on my feet- wtf? They're big, nasty bites. And they itch like there's no tomorrow. Leave me alone, mosquitoes!

Last night at Commune, Stephen and the bartender saved my life. There was a cockroach ready to attack me (thank God I didn't even see it, but they did). It was on the wall, near my head. Had I seen it, I would have screamed like a baby girl and ran clear outta there! But Stephen did a great job keeping my eyeballs away from it's view; and the bartender intercepted, came to the rescue and killed that disgusting, 6-legged monster. Incredible. There are far too many cockroaches and mosquitoes around here. I don't appreciate their presence.

I'm packing up boxes this weekend and mailing them home. I have a lot of stuff, especially shoes. I'm happy it's the weekend. I need to find me some Grey Goose.

Friday, May 22, 2009

Special Thanks

I would like to take a moment to specially thank a few people for listening to me vent, as well as giving me their take on things. So thank you very, very much to Cathy, Hayley, Karly, Lizzy, Tony and my cousin, Chris. You guys are soooooo wonderful! Thanks for being there. BIG hugs and kisses to you! xoxo
So, today was worse than yesterday and probably just as bad tomorrow. T-E-N-S-I-O-N at work. It was so funny today- I could do nothing but laugh. The teachers, including myself, are incredibly irritated with ALL this extra work that continuously keeps getting put onto us. So now, as of today, I'm getting extra babysitting hours, starting next week. Wow- Amazing. I hate my job- officially hate it. On the bright side, I'll be home before I know it! Life is kicking my ass right now. I'm trying as hard as possible to "ride the wave." But I keep faltering. I know I'll catch a good wave soon. And when I do, I'll ride it for a looooooong time......
Goodnight. Vodka and I are closer than ever these days.......

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Time to be Random

~I talked to my Mama this morning for an hour and a half. Love her. She's the best.
~I'll skip to tonight's wrap-up...after work, Joshua and I went to Noracro for drinks and decided that I'm going to quit my job together on Saturday (give my 2 months notice). He's gonna write the e-mail and I'm gonna send it. It's either that or I'm just gonna hop on an airplane and return to America without telling anyone (in Japan). I've been so bitter at work this week (for a billion reasons); which, by the way, is very unlike me. I'm just exhausted from all the work I put in, and getting absolutely nothing in return. I'm burning out. Like a candle in the wind (I love that song). My boss doesn't believe in praise; no one says, "Thank you," and my students have dirty mouths. Sometimes I wish I didn't care so much; then life would be easier.

~~~Is Adam not the American Idol winner?~~~I can't wait to eat real food again.~~~ I am dying to take a bath- haven't had one in 9 months. ~~~A clothes dryer would be nice, too.~~~I think I forgot how to drive a car.~~~And I definitely forgot how to speak English in a natural manner.~~~

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Is it the Weekend Yet?

I just want this work week to be over. I'm exhausted and emotionally drained. I'm still pretty upset; it's all I can think about...
Yet, my little pre-school angels made me smile early this morning with their hugs, kisses and laughter. They are too adorable. I love them.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Was It a Nightmare? Nope.

...still just as painful today as it was yesterday. Will this pain ever go away?
I know I shouldn't take all of this personally; it's just as hard on others, as it is myself. It's just that I'm 6,000 miles away from my family and I can't talk to them about it. It's really, really difficult and hurts so badly. I'm still trying to come down from the shock of it all. I want to be understanding of the situation, but my feelings overcome logic. These feelings are pretty indescribable. I can't say that I've ever felt this way before. I just wish things were different.

I Don't Know What To Say

This has been a painful day. My heart is broken.
(I wrote a post previously to this with much more raw material. But it was far too depressing, and it revealed too much on a personal level. Few of you had the opportunity to read it. And I apologize. In my eyes, it was inappropriate, therefore, deleted).
They say time heals everything...I wonder how long until this wound is healed...

Monday, May 18, 2009

Rainy Season Begins

It's been raining all day. Humidity: 98% (according to my google homepage). Icky! I hate humidity. And this is just the beginning. It'll only get worse- hotter and stickier- as summer approaches. For the next month, however, it'll rain all day, every day. This is what Okinawa calls, "Rainy Season." Please don't get depressed, please don't get depressed...
Is it August yet?